Hello, Happiness. I have heard so much about you. You were there when a student found her name on the honors roll. You were there as Little Gab saw that her pet dog, Chloe, has given birth to three adorable little puppies. You were there when Casey was born to her nervous but excited mom and dad. You were there when Lola surprisingly saw her dad getting off the cab... her daddy has to work overseas and had to stay away from home most of the time. You were also there when a friend said sorry to her best friend, Sophie... the twinkle in Sophie's eyes were unmistakable. You were then when Kate pulled out her first perfect set of chocolate cupcakes from the oven.
I wonder how I did not notice you before from where I was. You see, I had made this room for myself where no one can ever reach out to me. I'm not sure where exactly did I get the idea that nobody likes me. I always tell myself about how I don't look good enough, dress nicely enough, talk eloquently enough and so many other negative thoughts. You bet! The more I think this way, the gloomier and more miserable I become. Maybe, I had shaped myself by the way I want others to think of me... which may not be me at all. This only give me this self concept that I will never be good enough.
Yes, I have heard about you... a lot. But it seemed my negative thoughts have pushed me too way back to one corner of my dark room that it was difficult for me to see your radiance. If ever there is something good about isolating myself from the rest of the world who is having the grandest time in big big and small ways, it has to be the ability to see the stage of life from an audience's lens. It made me see how others are happy even in the most "everyday" events. It allowed me to ponder about my issues. The best of all, though, is that a beautiful thought surprisingly creeps into my consciousness from time to time. These are the thoughts that grew and blossomed the more I let it stay in my mind.
Alas! I realized it is possible to smile and look at the world with a cheerful disposition.
Hello, Happiness. Today, I decide to be happy. It's going to be tough - changing paradigms and mindsets; but I can do this... with God's grace.